Mood: regret
Time: 11.33pm
Dear Diary,
just quarrelled with ben over msn. feeling damn pissed off and turned off by him. the more we communicate. the more i realised we can't go beyond as friends. he thinks i'm always emo over relationship things, he think there's something wrong with being faithful with the one you love. where as for me, i think relationship is about commitment and staying through thick and thin for your partner. we both are just world apart. and he thinks that i'm stupid over my ex matter, maybe i'm, but for a person who have never experience love, i doubt he has much standing to comment stuffs on the affairs of the heart. it's okay to create some impressions towards me, but please fucking stop crossing over the boundary. stop saying this and that about my personal life. it turns me off totally.
the whole world thinks that they know me. when they don't, they always think they know every other so well that they can even read each other time. lately, someone told me, if a couple were to quarrel everyday, it means they are not mean for each other. so are you here to tell me, as long as two don't quarrel, they are heavenly matched? stop crapping, you don't measure love or by differentiating your right one those such things. it's about the feeling, your heart, not your head, not rationality.
just stop pressuring me when i say i know what to do. i'm clear minded, i know who i love now. who's still the right one? alright. stop telling me to let go and stuffs. cause i never wanted your redundant comments and it's never appreciated at all. i know you care, if you really do. please give me some personal space for my beliefs and emotions. stop acting like you know please, cause you don't.
if you think that i loved a wrong person. well, i'm proud to tell the world that i'm sure he's the best guy for me, who really knows me well, and do whatever thing that i'll always love. he's my everything, he's the one. i'm looking no more. cause i've given my vow, and i'm loving him from that day on. till now. nothing will stop me. quit trying. he did hurt me in my ways, but i can tell you, i will forgive him soon. not all things matters.
