Tuesday, August 7, 2007

mood: restless
time: 10.25pm


Dear Diary,

i've been working 3 days consecutively. i mean it's manageable, but it's killing me cause i gotta juggle studies and work at the same time. and not only that, i got other stuffs to work on, especially projects. gosh, why am i always so busy. not only busy, but tired too. suppose to meet happy after work, but i got too tired and don't wanna make him wait in the car for too long so we're meeting up on wednesday night. :)

the whole of last week...

monday - no school. happy came back to Singapore after his 4 days of china business trip. didn't pick up him, but he picked me up after he got home and went suntec to queue for donut factory's donut, bought a dozen. the donuts are superb! i'm gonna go back and get more the next time round. after that went fisherman and drink with anan and gary. went happy home and stayed for awhile and he sent me home. anyway, happy gave me a pleasant surprise, he bought me a spongebob. how sweet can he be? really.

tuesday - journalism and news broadcasting lecture. was taught to write like a reporter and fell sick in lecture room. dang~ i sneeze my way through in the room. happy came school and fetch me to lunch together. mr nice send ame to orchard mrt first and we went back to all the to tampines ikea to eat. lost my appetite, and went home early and rest.

wednesday - sick, rested at home. missed advertising lecture. fuck, i heard it was a good one. well, never mind. stay home the whole day. happy was kinda worried i think, he offered to buy fish soup for lunch. which makes me think he's crazy, he comes back to tampines from his office just to buy me food? to what extend can one be? anyway, i rejected him. thank god i felt better in the evening, if not he's gonna bring me to the doctor. he called me and we talk on the phone awhile.

thursday - still not feeling well in the morning. again, i gave 2 public relations lecture a miss. anyway i couldn't be bothered with this lecturer and this module. ben called me in the afternoon and asked me out. as usual, he would meet me in tampines first and go town together. went marina square to watch perfect stranger. ate my favourite ice cream and gotten it for free, all thanks to ben's friend and we played pool while waiting for our show. and i love this movie, cause of the meaning the writer is trying to convey to it's audience. but sadly, the way the script was wrote was a little dead and has little climax. made me and ben felt asleep together for awhile. he wanted to leave half way, but i insisted on staying through. thank god i did, if not i won't realised that it's such a meaningful movie. supposed to join Jo at pub, but failed to hire a cab, and ben was scolding me saying he stop going club after he know me and whatsoever. gotten sick of his constant nagging and gave up and headed home.

this movie got me thinking every human are actually a stranger towards each other. we never know what a person is thinking and what's in him. you just don't know and will never get to know. we all have our very own deepest secret in us. one that we never be made know to anyone and one that shall stay within ourselves. i felt that the computer expert, also a sex addict and the female lead who got sexually harassed by her father when she was young are living examples reflected. such situation happens everyday, and hell yes, in this realistic world. this is the truth, we're this ugly and disgusting, but we just wanna hide this fact. i don't know why. anyway, everyone has something so deep that they never wanna share and never wanna get exposed about. sometimes we take these inner secrets too heavily that humans can go to any extend just to prevent it from leaking out. just like how the movie portrayed, killing and extorting just to meet one's own end. this show how defensive human nature are, how we tend to isolate ourselves from the outside world and no one can actually connect to each other so well that we could totally understand 2 different souls. so when you look into the mirror the next time, the reflection is actually not you. your reflection is in yourself, your heart and mind.

friday - television and radio production. interesting lecturer, enriching lectures. learnt a lot, many stuffs that can't be found anywhere. long day, 2 lectures. happy asked me out, but decided to meet rachel cause i miss her so badly. but there's some last minute thing that cropped up and was the meet up was cancelled. stay home and sleep my way through. lost my favourite pink nike bottle, got so affected by it.

saturday, sunday - working, studying.

that's all folks, good night.

loved on 2:01 PM