Thursday, August 2, 2007

mood: sick - moodless
time: 11.02am

Dear Dairy,

wasn't feel tad well after school yesterday. must have gotten sick in lecture room yesterday. was sneezing my way through the whole of Journalism and News Broadcasting lecture. kinda disappoint myself, didn't gave my full attention to the lecturer, was harping on some thoughts that strike me. i gave school a miss today, wasn't feeling well physically and psychologically.

i hate being busy, but i'm always busy till i need a breather. i wanna be free, relaxed. but i can't, giving myself space, giving is equivalent to giving myself room to let those complicated mindset flow in. how contradicting can i ever get? god.

i'm very upset over you when you call me a nonsense last night. well, if calling me a nonsense would make you feel better, then so be it. think you're stress and i stepped over the line. told you that men and woman can never get each other's mind right. we'll always take and look things in a different perspective. and always end up in conflict. anyway, i'm seriously fucking tired of this merry go round thing. guess you're mentally tortured like me. and we're sick of being sick and tired.

you're not being yourself, so i'm. maybe i'm obstinate, not faithful. its time to love someone by placing them in a special position in your life life. memories will be enough to last you. i wanna rest now. we'll get an answer someday when we give each other space.

i will be

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly
You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah
And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay
I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart
And all my life, you know
I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay


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