Monday, August 13, 2007

Mood: down, confused
Time: 11.00pm

Dear Diary,

i wonder how long more do i wanna let myself down. i can't believe i actually cried in front of happy. no wonder people are mocking at me for being such a fool in love. even now, i can't help it to look at myself twice. i hate myself, i really do. i can't stop asking myself, why am i loving such a creep after what he has done to break me into pieces. honestly, i wish i could move on. but i don't know if i can or not or i simply refuse to move on. perhaps i love him too much, perhaps i can't let go, or even i'm too obstinate that i can't even curb myself. what am i left with, what can i do with it?

a mixture of love, memories, sweetness, happiness, bliss, pain, broken, hatred, forgiveness, bitterness, tears and regrets, this is how i'm feeling now. i can't describe what i'm feeling now because i have too much to say. but does it even matter now? cause things are beyond my reach, he can't be bothered.

a song to relate to.

听说爱情回来过

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾回来过
想请他替我向你问候
只为了怕见面说不出口
你对以往的感触还多不多
曾让我心碎的你我依然深爱着

在朋友那儿听说
痴心的你曾找过我
我要他帮我对你隐瞒
只是怕见了面会更难过
我对以往的感触还那么多
曾给我幸福的你我依然深深爱着

有一种想见不能见的伤痛
有一种爱还埋藏在我心中
我只能把你放在我的心中
这一种想见不能见的伤痛
让我对你的思念越来越浓

我却只能把你把你在我心中
有一种想见不敢见的伤痛
这一种想见不敢见的伤痛
对你的声音你的影你的手
我发誓说我没有忘记过
而关于你选择了现在的她
我只能说我有些难过
我也真心真意的等过

loved on 2:15 PM