Monday, October 1, 2007

Tuning: The Last Song - The All American Rejects
Time: 12.49pm
Mood: Frustration, Relief

i'm feeling so relief now, like a burden being taken off you. i finally decided what i wanna do. and i swear i'll be determined this time round. if you fucking don't give a damn to all the help offered, i suggest you just die off. i swear i won't love you anymore, a loser like you don't deserve me. what's enough is enough. fancy accusing me of imposing my wills on you, why not learn to look at yourself. you too wanted your way isn't it? com'on. don't act like you're naive. everyone's for themselves. it's human nature. i don't blame you for what you've done. i shall be magnanimous and forgive you. i'll write everything off. but from now on, don't expect me to look at your way. i can't bothered. you drink, you smoke, you do whatever things that can bring you down. best if you can get yourself kill. don't go on living, dragging people down. start earning credit for yourself before you go hell. i swear you'll miss me for what i all did for you. i fucking make sure you will live with this regret. this is the price you pay, i've made it all for you. we owe each other enough. go fuck yourself with all those apologies, i don't fucking need them. go save it for all the people you've been letting down all along. i'm no longer the girl you know all along. i changed, just like you. but much better off than you. much better than you actually know.

didn't i tell you? i know myself too well? the moment i give up on someone, that's it. i'm gone forever, don't expect me to turn back. i reminded you umpteen times. obviously you can't be bothered, don't blame me for turning ugly. i did what i could. or perhaps, i'm too nosey, i asked for it anyway. it no longer mattered and it's not the time to start condemning each other now. what's gone are gone. i won't go on consoling myself, i had enough. i've been seriously too patience and understanding towards you, haven't i? they are so unlikely me, so not my style. and yet you're not appreciative and you start whining at my weakness. why? you go start searching your heart. and terribly sorry, i don't love you anymore. just like what you claimed. and for one thing, i'm smarter than you, and smarter than you think i can be. looking at yourself, you lost the game. mind game. HA. play that on your own. i leaving you and your stupid charade. i might lose this game, but losing me is the ultimate. you will lose your lifetime friend, soul mate, a not so perfect girlfriend ut someone who really loves you. who's the bigger loser over here. obviously you, don't act like you're oblivious. go! go hug your mum and cry. it's all fucking fault, for what we've becoming today. look at the past, look at present. LMAO, what the fuck. screw you. get away.

fuck off and hope you pass on soon, bastard.

ps: die more of a tragic death, that might EASE, not cease my anger, hatred in you. what about being knock down by a car and die of a instant death? i can picture your sickening look with her crying beside you. LOL.

Never Again - Kelly Clarkson

I hope the ring you gave to her
turns her finger green
I hope when you’re in bed with her
you think of me
I would never wish bad things
but I don’t wish you well

Could you tell
by the flames that burned your words
I never read your letter
'cause I knew what you’d say
Give me that Sunday school answer
try and make it all okay

Does it hurt
to know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
And don’t say
you simply lost your way
She may believe you
but I never will
never again

If she really knows the truth
she deserves you
A trophy wife Oh, how cute
Ignorance is bliss
But when your day comes
and he’s through with you
and he’ll be through with you
You’ll die together, but alone

You wrote me in a letter
you couldn’t say it right to my face
Give me that Sunday school answer
repent yourself away

Does it hurt
To know I'll never be there
bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
And don't sayyou simply lost your way
They may believe you
but I never will

never again
Never again will I hear you
Never again will I miss you
Never again will I fall to you

Never Never again will I kiss you
Never again will I want to
Never again will I love you
Never!

Does it hur
tto know I'll never be there
Bet it sucks to see my face everywhere
It was you
who chose to end it like you did
I was the last to know you knew
exactly what you would do
And don’t sayyou simply lost your way
They may believe you
but I never will
I never will
I never will
never again

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