Sunday, January 27, 2008

Spinning: Fang Sheng - Fan Yi Chen
Time: 11:16am
Mood: Weary, Doubtful

i can't help to wonder what's so damn wrong in my life. i'm thankful that in this life i've met countless of great souls and many of time stayed through these years with me and still counting. life draws people together and pulls people apart. i can feel myself on the verge of losing a 7 years old best sister. from meeting each other 7 days a week, in school and outside to getting endless troubles to being there and cry with each other to where we chose different paths in life and to this particular stage, we are sort of experiencing difficulty conversing.

find me absurd, i'm really sick of this life. it is me or others or what? i can't tell at all. ought to be grateful, i began to hate the fact that every time i need a shoulder or a listening ear, those who is there ultimately are males friends. i don't deny that there's still one who will be there, but where are the rest? expecting too much or just nowhere to be found.

i don't get it, i really don't. looking at other people in love and i look at myself. why does my relationship has so many problems, so much to go through. are relationship like this or am i thinking and asking too much? feeling so sick and tired, i really wonder what where wrong. for every failure relationship, it seems that i have so much to play. someone enlighten me, please.

loved on 3:42 AM