Thursday, February 14, 2008

Spinning: Kind Of Perfect - Amour for Sleep
Time: 12.41pm
Mood: Calm

One always lingers over the past, fantasize over the future. but what's important is living in the present.

i don't understand why life is so irony and contradicting.

looking at your pictures have become my daily dose. i guess this is how much i miss you, how much i still yearn for your face and hands, how much i love you. i thought it wasn't deep, i though i stop bearing hope and expectations from you. now, things have prove me so wrong.

i have the urge to talk to you, but what can i say when things are so bleak. i don't want additional problems or pain, cause i'm so afraid of getting hurt again. my defenses are building myself a wall around me from you, it is demanding a closure in my heart cause it knows you did not appreciate and love me enough, it is speaking to my rationality and heart, persuading me to leave you once and for all and never to look back. somehow, my heart is speaking the otherwise. part of it is dead, the other half is still holding on to what's left hoping for a change in time. perhaps, it's time to stay firm and cool, gotta be strong and let you go to enjoy life once again. =)

don't hold on to a love that will cut your heart up and make you bleed. let go of them and find yourself a better love.

losing you, i lost my happiness,
it's okay, i gained more than i lost.

losing you, i lost my love,
it's okay, i have more love for others.

losing you, i lost my myself,
it's okay, i will rediscover myself again.

losing you, i lost someone who love and dote on me,
it's okay, i will love and pamper myself even more.

losing you, i feel lost,
it's okay, spending sometime with myself would get me on the right track.

losing you, i feel empty,
it's okay, i will get a new hobby, it will fill my emptiness and bring me back to life again.

losing you, i feel lonely,
it' okay, everyone are lonely inside. it's humanity.

i keep dreaming, you will be with me and you never go. but from now on, i gotta stop dreaming you in my sleep. sometimes you just gotta let somethings go. i'm strong and i can do it well.

Song to remind myself - Kind of Perfect

 Can I just be something
somewhere in your room
that you won't notice
maybe I'll be paper
or books thrown on your floor
move me when you want to
I'll live where you put me
in your vcr
if I become a cassete
or on top of your computer
if that's where I would fit
then so be it

but things can't be perfect
all the time that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
I will not say one word
I'll just hang around
I won't annoy you at all
when you move out I'll stay
until I'm thrown away
but then it won't matter

but things can't be perfect
all the time that I know
sometimes we just have to let some things go
Because things cant be perfect
all the time, that I know
Sometimes we just have to let some things go
I promise to start now (to stop now)
I promise to start now (to stop now)but things cant be perfect

All the time that I know
Sometimes we just have to let some things go
things cant be perfect
all the time that i know
sometimes we just have to let some things go

letting go is my life
I'll be on my way

loved on 5:01 AM