Thursday, February 28, 2008
Spinning: Touch My Body - Mariah Carey
Time: 11.16pm
Mood: Frustrated
i think i should fucking pick up some super exotic languages and start conversing with those people. i don't know what the hell is really wrong. customers are like this, your colleagues are like that also, and worst, when you thought you could get a break at home. your most loved person is also behaving like others. i either can't express well or they are not listening to me effectively. fuck, do people know what is the difference between hearing and listening or not.
i really hate it sometimes when you don't wanna see somebody, you just bumped into them or they come approaching you non stop. it's like you're a piece of meat and that cat (them) is ready to pouch on you anytime as long as the chances are available. i don't know how to make myself clear that when i'm working and BUSY, please do not come and talk to me. and you know i don't wish to share something personal, you just come forcing me. i'm not your younger sister, i know what to do for i know clearly what i want in life. thanks for your concern, but you're showing it at the wrong time.
when it comes to work, i always enjoyed it to the max. good intentions combined with wrong tone, expressions and attitude really screwed things up. all i can say, no matter how nice and lovely you are, when you did something to hurt someone, intentionally or unintentionally, you're doing bad instead.
whatever seriously, my temper was getting much better lately, thus, i'm never gonna let anything get in my way to perfection.
so often, people say they know and understand me too well. but look at now, do those words even make any sense at all?
now, i wanna be independent. i wanna do what i think is right and best for me. i just wanna be myself. =) i'm rather torn between school and work. Anan kinda offered me an administration job in her bank and i'm hesitating now because school have yet to process my application and i'm still opened to other options available isn't it? so, what should i do right now.
sigh, time to turn in already. night people.
oh anyway, i bought my gucci wallet.
loved on 3:38 PM
