Thursday, March 27, 2008

Spinning: Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne
Time: 11.47pm
Mood: Pissed

i don't know how you guys define this term - friend. but personally, i don't feel that you're even considered as a acquaintance to me, moreover friends. seeing each other in class, sitting right beside each other during lectures doesn't mean we're on good terms. well, i did treated you like my own. just like how i love Amelia. but too bad, you don't appreciate them at all and i doubt i can so do anymore. sorry, i'm usually quite magnanmious and forgiving to people who did me wrong.

if you do love me and treat me like a real friend, i doubt you would even say those hurtful words just to bring me down. what's the meaning of telling people i love flaunting my wealth, boasting around how expensive my stuffs are. you get this clear, you were the one who asked me questions regarding my shopping habits. i was just sharing every bits of my knowledge with you and i'm being maligned here. what shit is this? you were the one who asked what cosmetics i'm using and how much they each cost. i merely shared, that's all. do you have to insult me in front of others? well, to be real frank, i think you're just being jealous because you don't have the ability to even own a piece of my make up collection. i don't wanna insult you this way, but the way you behaving is conveying this message to me.

and what bloody makes you think that i'm a playgirl or whatsoever. yes, i'm whore, i change boyfriend like shirts. so what? i can do it, can you? ask Amelia, am i such person or not? she would definitely say no. i gotta admit i do have a lot of guy friends. and we hang out very frequent, but that doesn't imply anything. it's you who was too narrow minded all along. and asking you if you wanna hitch a ride to the nearest station doesn't mean i'm trying to boast that there's this guy who drives is after me. i was just trying to me nice because you and Ame were carrying such heavy textbooks and laptop. i offered Ame too, not only you. why would i deliberately anger you for? if you think that i don't deserve such guys, well you can say them nicely, you're entitled to your opinions. do you even have to say " i don't understand why all the guys are falling for you? what exactly do they see in you when i say nothing at all? you're not even pretty at all. " what the fuck, i didn't say i'm drop dead gorgeous and all guys should woo me. sometimes it puzzles me too. but i doubt, a true friend would even say this to me.

so what if this time round, we happened to be in the same class by chance. do you think i would even bother to say hi to you? can't you see even our kind and sweet Amelia is drifting away from you? you should know the situation better. fat hope if you think i would reply your sms, i simply cannot be bothered.

your name don't even once existed in my life.

loved on 3:09 PM