Sunday, March 16, 2008

Spinning: Embers and Envelopes - Mae
Time: 2.39am
Mood: Feeling Bless...

can't sleep, don't be mistaken. it's not insomnia acting up again. i guess i'm really happy today. do believe when you're told to expect the unexpected. trust me, life once in awhile will never be smooth sailing. the storms would clear up and make way to the warm and sunny sun. =) rewards always comes latter, after the rocky paths.

sometimes this guy makes me wanna slap him, strangle him or even kick his balls. he's not good with his words, he raised his voice at me quite often, bicker and die-die also wanna outtalk me and mock at me over stupid matters. but i know deep inside, he's the one who truly loves me. no matter how i scold him, insult him unintentionally, scream at him over ridiculous matters, he would always say, are you done? let's not quarrel. he's like a fish monger and i'm his patronizer. we can haggle over what gift he should get for me.

we had a bet that night, whether i can wake up on 10am. and i'm supposed to call him at 10am. and 10.30 after which to prove that i'm still alive and kicking. and if i managed to, he owes me a gift and there's room for negotiation for anything! =D so, given my character, just so expected. i won the bet! it's not about the gift, it's about my bloody ego and " face ". you know, what can be bought using money, is not an issue. i can earn them on my own ,always. anyway, i requested for a Gucci handphone strap. he gave a straight no. =( saying that it's just a piece of cloth and it cost so much. so the debate went on, he said he might consider buying me a red PSP for me. but i wanna tell him so much that i would prefer he buy me a Chanel or Dior Shades loh. =/ i think i better not speak up, i still need to live.

it's not about the quibbling, it's about the laughter and time spent. staying over at his house tomorrow. thanks to him, i gotta carry such a big bag to work.

what's most enlightening today was he made me realized that kelvin have never treated me right. he showed me what's worth hanging on to and what's not. i guess kelvin is just another pretty face and a charmer, but not a keep worthy guy. whatever it is, i'm glad he left a mark in my life. what matters is the lesson i learnt in his existence. takes time to forget someone completely.

currently listening to: Embers and Envelopes

We write to apologize.
We ask to look past life as it goes by.
I know you have sacrificed time,
life, love, time to fly.
Please consider all things trite,
forgiveness will be the thing that gets us by.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

We write to patch things up,
maybe not to agree but to proclaim love.
Let's look ahead and then we'll see the one
whose glory never ends.
And based on that we'll see,
there'll be room for change, but gradually.
I know to have something like this
broken is hard to fix.

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

If all is said and done and over,
if we don't have to, we're not gonna.
Make the change, it's worth the try.
What's broken can be fixed tonight.

Embers, we're burning bridges down.
Oh! Envelopes stuffed with feelings found.
To write this down as means to reconcile.

loved on 5:57 PM