Sunday, March 16, 2008

Spinning: Apologize - Timbaland
Time: 4.12pm
Mood: Paranoid

this song still reminds me of kelvin.

perhaps, i really have certain issues with myself. like what others say, i always give my boyfriend an impression that i don't really care. been through so much, getting my heart broke so many times, i guess i'm really in need of a good long rest. i kinda find myself pathetic, cause i actually forgot how it feels like to be in love, to truly love someone, to treat your love one right and to make commitment to each other.

i used to think romances come naturally, falling in love and that's it, the final product is a fairy tale ending. now i learn that it's ain't simple at all. to maintain a good and lasting relationship, feelings aren't sufficient. to cultivate, it takes days, months, years or even up to a lifetime. there are certain rules to obey, like building trust, spending quality time, respecting and be there for each other during the ups and downs, staying faithful and honest, frequent communication and showing love and care at all times. but to break a couple up, it's so easy. any reason can break them up, you don't even need a valid excuse to go separate way. countless to name when love has devalued.

love is noble and self sacrificing. beautiful and makes all mankind yearn for it at least once in their lifetime. but yet, they are so vulnerable and scarred easily.

well, just a note. if you think i'm not a good girlfriend, by all means, keep that thoughts then. i can't be bothered to explain. i'm really tired after those nightmares, i don't have excess energy to spare. everyone sets different expectation, i can't stop you from placing any on me. if you think i'm not doing well and you think you wanna leave me. i would say, sorry if i let you down in anyway and if you think you wanna go, i won't stop you. this is not a child play, you don't say you wanna go just to make sure i would keep you and to boost your ego at the same time. if you wanna stay, i would keep you. if you wanna go, i'll open my arms and let you go.


Song for someone - Now She's Gone

Girl you know I miss you so
I didn't know you had to go
You've had enough of our distance baby
Before I had the chance to say
I'm staying with you
For the rest of my life Oh Oh~

Don't keep telling me these words
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was

I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

Don't keep telling me these words Oh no
You don't know how much it hurts Woo
And I'll promise you eternity
If you promise me your stay
But now it's too late
I'm no longer the man that I was Wu~

I will go on without her Wu~
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song Woo
Oh yeah I know I don't know
Baby I am know I'am a foul

And I will go on without her
Like a fool who's too sure
I'm like a bird who's lost her wing
A fire without its flame
I don't know how to be strong
When my love has to move on
I am a song without a soul
Now that she's gone
What's left of us is this song

This is our song without a soul
Now that you're gone
What's left of us in this song

loved on 7:37 AM