Friday, March 14, 2008

Spinning: Now She's Gone - Lin Jun Jie, JJ
Time: 1.00am
Mood: Depressing

i'm sorry honey. i don't know what i did that pissed you off. you need to know, from the moment i decided to let you go, i've never intended to have you back. if teasing you as a friend and that turns you off so much, i'm terribly hurt by your words. i really don't know that it would upsets you so badly and you gotta resort to using detest to express yourself. it's really a very strong word, so strong that it creates a huge impact on me. just letting you know, i'm not jealous, no longer jealous. you used to be mine but things have changed. i'm rational enough to know. though i gotta confess that i do miss our good times, i miss the guy whom you used to be but i also know things happened and we changed. it's impossible between us now and in future. whatever it is, i'm glad you were once someone whom i can call of my own. i'm really sorry, sincerely sorry for everything. i will leave if my existence affects you so much. i'll retrieve my magnanimous and love as friend from you if you find that so bothering. i had enough of weeping over us, this shall be the last time i allow you to inflict pain into my life again.

every how and then, i'd ask myself.
why the hell am i living in this world.
why am i crying here, trying so hard to live each day.

i wanted to give you a birthday surprise.
i wanted so much to give you a birthday kiss, just a birthday kiss.
i went through so much just to plan something just for you.
this is what i get.
do i even deserve a single bit of these?

you never fail to prove me that loving you is my deepest regret in my entire life, cheng hwee.

loved on 4:22 PM