Saturday, April 5, 2008

Spinning: Never Again - Kelly Clarkson
Time: 1.52am
Mood: Conceited, self absorbed

i'm so damn bloody proud of myself today. never felt so happy and so good before. i swear dumping you was the best things i've ever done in life.

you know what you jolly well did. honestly for this one month, i had a hard time struggling and tolerating your bad attitudes and chauvinistic mindset. and that's it, you know what you did and you fucking hit my limit. i can withstand every single bad attitude and stuffs. but not this. [ peeps, if you're keen on knowing, please ask me personally. it's not very nice to reveal them here. sorry bout it. =) ]

you know i actually thank god for giving me the courage and determination to leave you for good. you're out of my life. and seriously, you're shit compared to kelvin. i know comparison is unfair. but why don't you try taking a look at people around your age and yourself. you'll notice the vast differences. and please, do you think being loaded is a big deal? nah, i don't care a shit about your money. if you earn them by the right means, i'll be very proud of you cause you achieve them on your own. but that isn't the case, so don't flaunt your dirty money in front of me. those money are unclean. you're blinded by money by which you can even cast your ethnicity and morals aside. i guess your conscience is long lost.

it's okay. i cannot imagine a future with you. and it doesn't really matter who is the ultimate winner in this game. cause you played me out right now. perhaps you didn't, but i felt so. anyway, i did play you out. put it in short, i did cheat on you. i can't say it was a white lie, but i did it out to save our relationship. i do have you in my heart. after all, looking at what your treatments, i think its considered nothing especially compared to what you said and intended to do. well, fair and square. so goodbye. we're winner of our own games. don't whine why your relationship turn out this way. you asked for it, don't say i can't commit, its simply because you're not a potential long term boyfriend or husband material. i hinted you. of course, i'm not saying i'm but honestly, i think i'm much better than you.

well. honey, live well. doing illegal stuffs won't get you far. hell to you and your dirty awful money! i'll prove i can do so much better without you. just like how i manged to amaze kelvin when he saw me. =)

by the way. a very big thanks to benedict and gordon for the slacking sessions. i really did laugh my heart out. life's getting better despite of some trying to bring me down.

=D loves to all!
night.

ps: 8 more days to school reopen. i hope got shuai ge, and most importantly is he will be mine =x haha, kidding.

loved on 5:16 PM