Thursday, May 29, 2008

Spinning: Collide - Howie Day
Time: 1.32pm
Mood: foolish

again, changed my blog address because i need to eliminate some childish people out of my life. i've been consistently reminding myself, there are some people you can do without, especially their drama they bring.

anyway, i think i met 2 losers. and they seriously make me wanna go LAUGH OUT LOUD so badly. guys, be a man and stop whining like some bitches.

1. Gordon.

i think i ever asked a friend, or my friends ever mentioned that. my life is full of dramas, ups and downs, full of colours and emotions. people have been telling me that its not your fault, because it's drama who comes to you, not you asking for it. perhaps this is my life and i'm suppose to learn to feign ignorance. i've always wish my life would be simpler than this, easier than this.

i don't know if i hurt you badly or what. i don't know. i don't see the reason why you have to get back at me this way. i'm hurt, i don't deny. but it that makes you feel better, i don't mind letting you have your way. after all, i was the one who cheated. whether you ever loved me or not, is not an issue. never at all, because you knew all along i wasn't in love with you. i was just blinded by my assumptions, thinking that i had some feelings. i apologized for hurting you or offending you any ways, you're really too childish for my liking. if you think you're not, it's okay. you're entitled to have your own mindset. if you feel that you were a good boyfriend and i suck and failed my duty as a girlfriend, it's okay. because nothing you say or do can make me feel a thing, be it loving you, making me jealous, or trying to hurt me.

now i wonder how genuine as a person. since right inside you, you hate me to the core. why bother initiate conversations, asking me for advices and stuffs? why act sincere when you're not. perhaps it was a wrong move to even care for you. because you're fake. you have been sowing discords between me and people. i think i had enough of being true to you as a friend. it's time you go and step out of my life and never come in. let's not be friends since you have difficulty overcoming facts.

2. Kelvin.

what your meaning of coming back and stepping out as and when you like it? what am i to you? a toy? forget me when you have other women every time? stop asking me back, you and your nonsense. you never meant what you said. why not you get me out of your life. don't tell me you miss me and you always think of me. you know, it don't a mean a shit now? i won't tolerate how you cheated on me, i won't give a damn anything about you anymore. it's not being in love with someone new or what. its about finding myself back and being the real me. i condone you for being unfaithful, once, twice, enough. no more. i feel disgusting with myself for doing so. seriously. you might be too charming for me to resist, you may be a too-good-deal for women, you're what a girls are looking for. i won't be the spineless me, loving you blindly, thinking acceptance is everything. now i've awaken, i know i should stop loving you blindly.

don't look me up anymore. don't try dating me anymore. don't tell me you miss me. don't abuse my good anymore. this is end, i'm drawing up.

good bye to you both.

loved on 1:42 PM