Saturday, July 5, 2008

Spinning: Disturbia - Rihanna
Time: 5.18am
Mood: energetic~

my baby, do you think i'll be over the moon to know you've initiate a break up with her? think about it, i don't fucking give a damn if i was a 3rd party. because i simply know you and your infamous infidelity too well. guess i'm just taking my own sweet time to get over you. i know sooner or later you're just gonna end up like some other guys. being eliminated out of my life, for good.

for another guy. you fucking upset the hell out of me. i only got myself to blame for unwillingly to get you out of my life for the past 2 years. now i finally did, i didn't know why you had to come back to shower my life with hell loads of shits and nonsense. you're making my life difficult. but it's okay, the more the better. i wanna be stronger. i wanna work on my threshold. you think i was kidding when i said this is the end of us? now i did proved you wrong, have i? please stop trying so hard to instill your perceptions on me.

and who are you to judge and define what's right and what's wrong. mind you, you were never once in any position to do. if you think i'm not getting anywhere in life, perhaps, it's time you look at yourself.

is this what you call substance?
oh well, since you said so, i would gladly accept.
i'm not keen of doing things your way.
i don't force my way through and get ugly when i know i suck.


ps:

by now, you have already witnessed how nasty i can get.
so try me. i'm no longer your typical girl.
i've changed. romance and guys are nothing in my eyes.
i cheated without feeling any bit of guilt.
it's a norm, get over it.
if you can do it, why can't i?
to think conscience mean a thing to you.

if you feel i'm proud and full of myself, by all means go ahead.
for i know it very well that i'm just holding high self esteem and standing very firm with what i want in life.


so long, heading my way back to revision.

loved on 5:36 AM