Monday, July 14, 2008

Spinning: Run The Show - Kat Deluna
Time: 5.57am
Mood: speechless

okay, look at the bloody time.
again, i'm like so awake at this hour. it seems i have difficulty sleeping well lately.

i'm so so disappointed in my bestie.
for countless time, you have been silting your wrist for guys. now your entire arms are those awful scars. why are you silly enough to inflict physical pain? what on earth do you think those guys are worthy? do you think it would even make you feel less heartbroken or make up for your loss? for 7 years, i'm tired of you the same damn thing. you just wanna destroy what you built especially after those pains of building your life up again. have you forgotten what you told me? you hate those scars, you hate being down. and nothing will ever put you down like before again.

great, now you're such a let down.

if you wanna indulge in such foolish acts, getting wasted and stuffs. i'm sorry, i wish you well then. i can't afford to spend my night getting wasted with you in rowdy places. perhaps i'm just a country bumpkin who doesn't know how to enjoy life to the fullest. seriously, whatever. who gives a fuck to those life when you know what's ahead of you will be much more meaningful that those.

lose a friend or lose yourself.
human for themselves. very true.

ps: afternoon lecture from now on. better go catch some sleep. :)

loved on 6:11 AM