Friday, July 11, 2008

Spinning: Kelsey - Metro Station
Time: 10.35am
Mood: too bad...

finally exams are over!
god did bless my ass.

i think term 2 will be horribly fast. my term duration will last from 14th july to 12 oct. inclusive my examination from 20th sept to 8 oct. i guess term 2 will be heavier, mass media research and print media modules sounds really tough to me. whatever it is, i'm gonna do my revision daily. so i won't have to rush through when the exam period approaches. i'm gonna rearrange my life, gonna draw up a daily timetable and make sure i accomplish those task.

for some particular someone. seriously. say and perceive whatever you want. it's not i can't be bothered, i just find you plain childish. asking where are you in life is not about you in ITE. it's you and inferiority that's acting. there's so much meaning to it. i won't find this 7-8 years of friendship a pity. cause it's pretty obvious you're still immature. it's okay, in this course of life, this is part of the growing pain - losing your friends who have been through thick and thin with you. i've lost a lot of friends in this process. be it they changed drastically, drifting away or taking different paths. i've learn that this is life. i wish you well.

and you challenge me how far i will go in life. sorry to say this. i'm going university next year. i've at least draft something out for my life. at least i have a vague idea where i'm heading to. i actually have it planned out in details. i won't wanna touch on it now. i know it's not gonna be easy, and no one said that it is gonna be. but excuse me, have you got your life plan out as detail as mine? for sure there will be failure, but at least i've tried and got things in order. have you? definitely i'm better off. planning to ensure success, to make sure you're on the right track.

i don't need any recognition from anyone to tell me i'm doing well in life and stuffs. there are much stuffs only you, yourself would know. why should you even be dependent on others for recognition or encouragement. if you're sincerely and generous with your encouragement, i welcome them. if you wanna bring me down, i would advise you to keep a constant look out on my life then. acknowledge my changes, my achievements. everyone has been telling me my changes are scary, are drastic, positive. whatever, everyone are entitled to their free speech and opinions. say what you want. i love myself and i think it's suffice. enough said.

now if you're reading this, you might find me cocky. it's okay, as long as i know i'm not. for i only look down on one kind of people - got brains but refuse to put it into good use. unless you wanna tell me you're one.

actually, no one looked down on you. it's you who looked down on yourself. it's the light you bring yourself upon. no one has ever force you to see yourself in that way i believe. i feel, even if the world do view you that way, as long as you don't think of yourself that way, there's no hindrances that would ever stop you from being a bigger person. loving yourself is definitely not through such actions.

please remember that i was like you, who failed maths and couldn't make it to tertiary education. but look, i struggle my way through and i'm still persistence about my future.

well, calling you brother for the last time. i hope you will come to an enlightenment and be more motivated about your beautiful life. live for yourself. good luck. i won't bother to explain.

what has to go will go eventually.

loved on 11:04 AM