Saturday, August 30, 2008
Spinning: Empty - The Click Five
Time: 4.15am
Mood: missing someone...
i can't sleep.
feeling uncomfortable, tossing and turning on bed.
can't breathe, can't stop thinking.
my head can't get any peace.
my head stop that throbbing pain.
i'm getting cold under this warm blanket.
sometimes, i ask myself.
am i trying to hard?
trying too hard to prove the world?
am i really this way or have i lost myself in the process of life?
is this me? is this the real me?
or this is a form of escapism that i force myself to adapt to?
it's tiring to always be at your best.
sometimes you don't get it why you have to try so hard at everything you do.
behind all those facade people think you're.
do they know what a girl like me really need?
or perhaps, i don't even know myself now.
i miss you adrian.
and i think of you all the time.
i can't help but to wonder, do i ever cross your mind at all in a day?
it's really amazing.
how you help me get over kelvin.
been a year, since i met someone who could replace kel.
but you did and you had to go.
or rather, we have to go.
i don't have the urge to give you a call or sms.
neither do i still wait for your call or sms.
just that i can't stop wondering why things end up this way.
i didn't stop myself from going, in fact i was determined than you.
is it because i know this is not gonna work out?
or i know i'm like you, not ready to settle down.
somehow, i still have this strangest feeling about this.
can't really put my fingers across.
just feeling it, that way.
love is a burden. it's not subjective.
it's the way is it.
it's a matter of you're willing to carry it with you or not.
keep breathing.
just keep doing so.
loved on 4:30 AM
