Sunday, August 24, 2008

Spinning: Over You - Chris Daughtry
Time: 10.50pm
Mood: calm

i'm lost for words right now. it seems that a week was a couple of months. so many things happened in the speed of light. the more i go through, the more i noticed and feel changes, the more uncertainties hits me bad and makes me insecure and fear life.

a week ago, things were never like this. it was so sweet, it felt so right. it feels like nothing matters at all, even if the sky were to fall on us. i enjoyed myself. i have to admit that i was deeply attracted to you, somehow. i swear i will never forget how things were, how my day was beautifully painted.

i don't know why things changed, maybe it was me who asked for it. i can't tell, totally can't. i guess i was fine with you. i never wanted to settle down. because i wanna keep myself in the comfort zone. but it seems that things went wrong gradually. it might not seem so important now, but still is back then. maybe it wasn't your style, myabe you do really have your reasons. i don't know. you made it so serious that i've decided to give it a try. i'm serious, giving every bit of my best effort. but, what about you. is this your best? yes, sometimes. but could be better. and after a week. this is what i get. your silence, your avoidance, your escapism. it's okay. i never thought of that as something so serious that could kill this relationship.

it's okay. i guess this is how the curtains will be drawn up.
thanks for telling me you're serious.
thanks for saying that you know i make a very good girlfriend.
thanks for acting like we were okay.
go and never come back.

bye.

loved on 11:01 PM