Friday, October 24, 2008

Spinning: All These Things I've Done - The Killers
Time: 5.59am
Mood: fucked up

i found myself waking up in the middle of the night being too stressed up.
in fact i'm here, right in front of my laptop at this hour to rush through my graduation project draft for the meeting later.

i have so much to do.
i'm so tired.

i'm so fucking pissed with life and the two-faced people.
i'm leaving this fucked up job, unless the day when i cannot be bothered comes.
i'm so gonna be done with this piece of shitty thing.

now, i'm willing to exchange some simplistic life over luxurious. anyone interested in this deal? let me know. =)

ps: update again

Sarah and i was playing some stupid palmistry thing at counter yesterday. she was saying that i would have 3 relationships that i really once loved deeply and those relationship are the ones which are gonna leave an impact or rather a mark in the course of my life.

she had 2 lines and i asked if that was true for her. she confessed that it was the case and sort of shared a little of the story. so that kinda make me wonders, if what we said were all true. will going through all those hardships brings us another step closer to our mr / miss right? i can't help but sometimes wonder what makes a woman like Sarah wanting to get married? What's in her husband that always makes her day and how on earth she's able to be so certain that she made the right choice? is family everything to a woman? i wish i had her courage, to be what she can. a girlfriend of guy and eventually be married to him, gave birth to a beautiful daughter and live happily after.

i don't know. i guess i'm still young. and have no faith in love.

speaking of which, while i was on my way to work, i saw this back view of this guy in the train yesterday. he has everything it takes to be another kelvin, just that he's gonna be the younger version. then i realized i couldn't take my eyes off him, though it was just his back i was looking at all along. there's 2 explanations to this, i'm either deeply attracted to guys like this - ideal guy, or he reminds me of kelvin and i subconsciously wish kelvin was around.

if things were what like what Sarah said, i'm left with one last mr wrong to go. =) haha, how silly can a girl get, like seriously?!

morning, i'm going back to sleep now.

loved on 6:19 AM