Thursday, November 6, 2008
Spinning: Without You - Hinder
Time: 11.03am
Mood: disheartened
when this began, i told myself.
i finally found myself alive again.
because i've never been this happy.
nope, the happiness is beyond descriptions.
should i said, it felt like i was heaven.
it felt like i found that girl again.
just like 3 years back.
who believe in love wholeheartedly.
who has this urge to settle down with this man right before her.
for all the words say, for every intentions.
they took my breathe and heart away.
thank you.
i really wish things could last.
i hope you did feel the way i feel for you too.
because it really never felt so right.
perhaps i screwed it.
or things are meant to drift apart.
or rather this were never meant to be something at all.
it puzzles me, it confuses me totally.
why things turn out this way, in a split second.
i would still look forward to you snatching my pillow.
i would still hope to have the chance to take care of you, be it you turned old or your injuries.
i would still wanna stay in the drain with you.
i would still wait patiently for you to fetch me.
i pray you still remember the agreement you made tomorrow and you're gonna fulfill it.
do you know, i really hate myself for my carelessness that cause us to miss the chance of having supper together.
you said you wonder what my reaction would be if you were to snatch my pillow away.
i won't pull your hair, but will hug you to sleep from then on. i don't need my pillow when i got you.
you asked me to take care of your wound and if you're old and fragile.
in actual, i would love to, if i'm bestow the chance to.
confession is always tough.
and i hate to say,
i think i'm quite in love with you.
i don't know why.
it just happened and i fell so hard.
i'm sorry, to act like i don't care, if it ever bothers you.
now, my heart goes to bed without you.
i should learn to stop looking at my phone.
hoping, praying, wishing to see your response.
this is just another fleeting dreams.
a non-existence chapter in my life.
always learn the fact that there's a time to bid farewell.
its taking its toll on me ~
loved on 11:22 AM
