Monday, December 29, 2008
Spinning: Angel - Natasha Bedingfield
Time: 11:11pm
Mood: Tired
work's pretty fine today, had lots of fun, talking craps and all.
and just some stupid customers here and there to kill time.
hope to hit a sum of 150 commission for IPW tomorrow.
so i'll have at least 500 bucks of commission to survive my month.
sometimes i don't know myself.
i wish i knew myself better, so i won't be where i am now.
i bumped into Benny, Steve and his friends today in the bus.
it must have been at least 2 years since we last met.
Benny is still talking to me about him, after so many years and for countless of times.
i guess meeting Benny today is one of God's plan, he wants me to be reminded that things are long over.
i can't explain why there's this tinge of piercing pain coming through me when Ben mentioned about him being newly attached.
just yesterday, my workplace was playing this song that once belonged to us.
certain things i thought i had long forgotten seems to come to a replay.
from how i hated him, to being impressed, fallen in life and loving, to tearing apart, tears and shattered love and dreams, till present - end.
coming to 4 years, it has really been far too long for both parties.
i've clearly forgotten some important parts of us. so i reckon it doesn't mean much to me anymore, at least like before.
this is my new lease of life.
with work as my main focus, family and friends my priorities.
as for romance, i certainly hope i would meet someone whom i can settle down with.
someone whom i think i can entrust my life with.
i'll let nature takes it course. for i know somethings cannot be force upon.
i have someone in mind.
but does that really matter even if i'm serious about it.
because it's gonna be another unrequited feeling i'm having.
let this song remind me of us for the very last time.
and for this, i bid you goodbye and to "Us".
may your relationship with her be lasting and loving.
i may not be the most magnanimous girl in this world, but i still wish you the best in life.
i once said you're the man i love most, and you have to know that this is true till date, love.
thanks for loving me so much in the past.
i hoped we had the chance to build a family of our own, to watch our children grow up and to grow old in each others arms.
it's okay, nothing's is perfect. at least you were once mine.
thanks for making me a new me.
i'll still wear your perfume.
Ghost of you and me - Bbmak
What am I supposed to do
With all these blues
Haunting me, everywhere, no matter what I do
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I cant let go
When will this night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
And one of them is mine
Raising my glass, I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why
The stars don't seem to guide me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will the night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love, it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
ps: i love you.
loved on 11:27 PM
