Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Spinning: -
Time: 12.04pm
Mood: down

i hate it when people / situation left me with no way out.
i know i'm being childish and stupid if i say i want things to go my way.
but why everyone / everything have to drive me up to the walls?
can't i just do it my way, living my days filled with love, sincerity and peace?

i'm no troublemaker.
i'm no politics lover.
all i ask for is simplistic days to live with.
is that too much to ask for?

i know in the course of life will never be smooth sailing.
i know it will be fills with lots of roller coaster ride.
but why does it seems that my life is tougher and dumpier than others.
it's not fair.
if that's the exchange for my good life, i would rather give all my materials all away.

i keep telling myself that God will never give put you through something you can't take.
i pull myself through thinking that what won't kill me will make me stronger.
but i guess all these are packs of lies.
they are taking it's toll in me, i'm growing weaker. more than i know.
i'm losing myself.
i barely know who's the girl inside me now.

thought that one you love most would spare you from all those shits.
but whenever something happens, it just gotta be you the one planting it.
i would be thankful if you just leave me for good.
don't let me bump into you in the streets, don't get me reminded.
i want nothing from you.
spare me from further heartache and emotional torture.
i guess being non-existence in each other life is the best way out.

i don't wanna see you, i don't wanna see kelvin. i don't wanna see any of you all.
what do you all treat me as, for fuck sake.
i guess i've really forgiven enough. it's time i be petty.

please just leave me alone.

if you think i'm not beautiful enough for you, please don't look at me.
if you think i don't carry a good personality, please, stay away from me.
if you think i'm a player, please don't make your lover.
if you think i'm not good enough for you, please go away.

i decide my worthiness, my value.
don't try to make me into something i'm not and i can't be.
i am myself.
if i'm not perfect enough, then too bad.
i'm sorry for being so flawed.

loved on 12:28 PM