Spinning: Mad - Neyo Time: 5.00am
Mood: confused
i know it has been really since i last updated my blog.
i can't really remember what i did for the past 2 weeks.
reckoned i've been crazily working out with my tight schedules, as usual.
time just flashed through my life without me realizing and it felt like yesterday upon recalled.
it somehow felt like new year's eve and new year was just so yesterday.
like where we anxiously anticipated a brand new life, invite and embracing it.
just a blink of an eye and it's the last day of the first month of the year.
what have i accomplished? what are my goals for this year.
i don't know, i haven't gotten anything or everything sorted out yet.
it's not about falling in love, getting into a relationship with some guy.
it's not about going rounds in life.
it's about getting there, heading to your ultimate destination.
i don't know. i guess love isn't really everything when you grow up.
i see myself in others, especially younger girls.
i used to think love is everything and you're complete when you think you found the right one.
it's not true, it's not a fact when they say you're a whole when you're in love.
i might be a little tad realistic, but i think money does wonders, so much more than love can do.
i was told that i'm not cut out to be in a relationship.
somewhat i have to agree.
i'm not a premeditator in this game of love, i ain't a player.
and i don't mean to play anyone out and to get anything out of this.
this is my confession, cheating and unfaithfulness is in my blood.
no string attached is my thing.
so put the blame on me and let me live my life.
i'm not looking for my own family.
i'm not looking for simplicity.
i'm not looking forward to someone in my life.
i see love as restrictions to my dreams.
i wanna thrive myself a career.
i wanna make a name for myself.
i still wanna see the world, i wanna go on exploring.
i love learning through these bumpy roads, through these roller coaster rides.
it gets tiring, it gets me emotionally cum spiritually challenged.
but it's all worthy of my painstaking efforts when i looked back.
all in all.
i still have a long way to go, the night is still young.
there are plenty of stuffs waiting for me to seek.
i won't settle down right now and not in the near future.
and i still think i better off without love.
the problem with myself is that i can't decide whom i wanna give my love to.
so i decided that i shall just love and keep them to myself.
it's just gonna be this way.
like it has always been.
ps: slipping through my fingers, i don't wanna try now.
