Sunday, October 4, 2009

Spinning: Doesn't mean a thing - Alicia Keys
Time: 12.14am
Mood: peaceful

okay, i've got only 5 to 10 minutes to spare.
gotta go back to project once i'm done drinking my soup.
and yes, that's my pathetic dinner i'm having for today.
partly because i don't think i have the time to spare for a proper dinner.

i can't quite describe how i'm feeling right now.
it's so much of a mixed feeling.
but i'm really glad about certain things and i find it a absolutely need to share them here. =) maybe whine a little too.

1. i'm FINALLY done with my make up diploma. and i've achieved a fairly good result. 97% for theory and 78% for practical. but the worse part to it is that you have to score at least 85% for both segment to get a distinction. so what the fuck right? and i'm just 7% away. so near yet so far right?

2. i FINALLY (again) got into the big U. honestly if you were to ask me, how does it feels like to be a uni student. i would tell you that it sucks big big time. i guess it's the projects and the rate my lecturer is going in class making the whole thing about school like shit. and the notes he gave are not helping at all. which defeats the whole purpose of having notes? i don't know. please don't make any attempt to question me. cause school is a killer. so i reckon it sort of sums up the whole idea about uni life?
(hopefully it's a adapting period thing)

3. i earned myself a 1.8k+ pay last month. i've never earned so much before, i swear. and it feels so fucking fulfilling. cause it's through my own effort and pain though i was feeling really drained off and fell ill in the end. but still, it definitely feels good to learn that your hard work pays off (better than you think sometimes).

4. AND i'm totally upset because...

christopher went drinking without me last night. and only got to know it when he was talking to me over in the msn in a very tispy state. adding on to the fact that i totally abstained myself unknowingly from alcohol for a month plus. not that i did that for a purpose.

but anyway.

leon asked for movie tonight and i have to suck thumb and stay home to mug. it has been two months since i last watched movie. believe it or not. i have been this fucking busy. i feel so disgusted myself. feels really sua gu when leon was talking about whatever movie he wanted to catch. (god, what on earth is happening to me!!)

and

okay, now, mr babyface is playing mindgames with me and he's on my ass. seriously. you know what, thanks for trying so hard. i think it's only fair to remind you that you're overdoing it and you're really a turn off. i just don't get it. why do people play mind games? for fun? whatever the reason. i just don't fancy this kind of stuffs. you're just doing it because you wanna show the other party that you got the upper hand and you're more superior than the? okay. if that makes you happy. okay, fine. dumbass.

okay, fuck.

leon is saying that i'm so poor thing over the msn at this very moment. goodness. just because i'm not having proper dinner. so makes me wanna self pity. fuck. this is crap.


alright, till then guys.

loved on 12:46 AM