Monday, October 5, 2009

Spinning: Heartless - Kris Allen
Time: 2.16am
Mood: deep in thoughts

i've yet to complete my competitor audit.
am left with the price comparison table to be done.
i'm so stressed up, i can't sleep. i don't know why.
i haven't even got my individual project started.

i feel i'm losing grip. and i'm feeling really insecure and scared now.
i feel like crying, i know i'm on the verge of breaking down.
i don't know why i feel like a baby now.
i wanna have someone to lean on, to hold on at this very moment.
perhaps i know i'm not gonna be able to juggle work and school anymore.
and for some reason my health is deteriorating. it keeps failing me.
i've been sick for a week plus and it's not improving.

and on top of all the stress that are piling up on me.
my mind is running wild, thinking too much.
why can't i let it go, it has been months.

i wanna hold on. but it's beyond my control now.
never was my calling and never will be.

loved on 2:35 AM