Time: 4.26pm

Mood: Broken

Hi, i know it's been far too long and i'm back. i've just read my archives and realized this blog is getting a little dusty. it definitely needs some cleaning up and since i'm having a little time now, i'm might as well write a little to ease my emotions.

anyway, my last post was on the month of October, and it's April now. it was 2009, and it's 2010 now, having half a year gone in 2 months time. i find it frightening that time is traveling too fast, it seems like it was just yesterday and i haven't got anything significant accomplished. unless you find that getting Uni and being a certified makeup artist is something biggie, then perhaps i'm not that loserish after all! hahahha.

2009 was a rather smooth sailing year as compared to this year. it's basically work for the whole year round till i started my make up artistry course in july and Uni in september. of course i went through a couple of major events, mischances. but looking back now, i'm feeling quite relieved, perhaps i know i have been growing and learning through the years. hopefully, 2010 is gonna be simple and kind to me, although quite a bit already happened within these 4 months. oh well, i'm just stay hopeful about things. i'm keeping my heart open.

within these 6 months, there were a few MASSIVE changes in my life.

not in chronicle order.

1. i left Estee Lauder. like finally, i could just fuck it and go. i have to admit that i really do love what i was doing except for serving customers. i miss it greatly but i know there are more worthy stuffs out there for me to explore and for me to go learn. i can't be a counter girl for life. but a part of me wishes that i'm still around because the fucking 50% is simple too attractive to be resisted. i'm a fucking sinner, a lot of girls must have thought that i was nuts.

2. My trusty lappy died of me in february, which was a little shocking for me. it was a sudden death so i don't think i was overreacting. anyway, i got MacBook due to influence. it's good and it's serving me extremely well. in fact it's doing a better job than my HP. haha, i screwed PC from then on and been telling everyone that Mac is the best thing on earth. it's no surprise that they are one of the most respected companies around. on a lighter note, i think Apple should award me with some most loyal customer award. which bloody ass would do word-of-mouth for apple almost every single day. well, now you know i'm that ass. -.-"

3. Have been reading a lot. got hooked up on Adrain Mole. it's addictive. that damn character has a whole range of books on him. finished 2 volumes. gotta go back for more. going to kino after exam. simple love him.

4. Fell in love, and out of love x 3. 2 wasn't exactly true. stfu, period.

5. Degree is still crappy, doubt that it is gonna get any better. i'm studying because i'm studying. whatever. got 2 distinctions and 1 credit so far. and i'm hoping peter bayliss is gonna get raped by faggots in Australia for not helping me out. i'm just fucking 2 marks away from distinction! why can't he just be a little more benevolent. fuck, i need to understand that not everyone has a heart of gold. i'm expecting myself to be cussing this till i graduate. Am taking this 4th paper this coming friday. and i'm still here blogging. -_-" fuck, i'll just mug double hard later on. aiming for high distinction this time round.

6. i'm out of job, and i'm looking for one now. intending to start life afresh. which is good. =) rather please with myself. but i'm procrastinating. and i shouldn't be pleased.

7. am determined to learn swimming, hoping to overcome my hydro phobia. it can be done. but still, my stand still remains. i'm not gonna go under the sun. i have no intention of looking like an apple. which some people have been claiming so. people just have issues with the way i look which puzzles me till today.

8. trying to cook. trying really hard. hmmm, talk about it when i get there.

9. chance upon Darren's facebook. damn, he's still so hot. goodness.

9. i'm sleeping now. i need to nap a little.

i think i wrote a too much for a little. will update on thursday night before i rest for my exam? i don't know. shall see.

good day to myself. :)

ps: from today on, this will be our form of communication. hope it would ease the pain by doing it slowly. thank you.