Time: 6.31am

Mood: Relieved

just woke up not longer ago. feeling so much better, slept at 8 last night due to the horrible fever.

kevin ong was looking for me last night. he is one fucking ass. the whole bunch of us are aware of his dirty deeds and yet he still wants to fool around with us. X offered to help me out. i may need his help if the situation is not getting better. actually i don't think kevin bothers too, he was aware i was attached when he first go to know me. i hope he fucking learns soon. and this applies to kelvin seah. i really have to do something about them both. i'm going crazy.

X is feeling very guilty. he thinks he caused me to fall ill. he's thinking that the japanese food, ice cream and the fucked up mixers made me this way. silly boy. would you be rather love or be loved?

i thought you're gonna send me a text telling me you're leaving. i'm disappointed and lost. i have no details. i know i can always take the initiative to do so, but i'm no longer sure if it's gonna be appropriate. i know you no longer feel for me anymore. so i don't think i should be doing that and i can't be expecting anything anymore. moreover, i think you were upset me getting drunk.

i'm going back to rest. otherwise X is gonna nag at me.