Time: 6.50am

Mood: calm

i don't know there was a sense of overwhelming heartache when i'm regaining my consciousness from sleep. it was what i exactly felt when things ended between shawn and i. in fact, the pain was more intense this time round. i guess it does shows how much this relationship was to me. definitely not nothing to start with.

i don't know but figured out that all these while you might have been waiting for me to give you more. just wanna let you know, it's really difficult on my side because of the given of our each other history, the way we started off, what awkward position i was in and stuffs. i'm sure you understand what i'm trying to say. it's not an excuse of not giving my best all these while, but i know i'm could give you so much more.

need to wash up and prepare to head school for exam.

all the best to me.